What is the worst possible way to break off a marriage ? With a boyfriend or girlfriend ? A friendship ? If you all would please elaborate thank you
The earth is the LORD’s, and all its fullness, The world and those who dwell therein. For He has founded it upon the seas, And established it upon the waters. Who may ascend into the hill of the LORD? Or who may stand in His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, Who has not lifted up his soul to an idol, Nor sworn deceitfully. He shall receive blessing from the LORD, And righteousness from the God of his salvation. This is Jacob, the generation of those who seek Him, Who seek Your face. Selah Lift up your heads, O you gates! And be lifted up, you everlasting doors! And the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD strong and mighty, The LORD mighty in battle. Lift up your heads, O you gates! Lift up, you everlasting doors! And the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD of hosts, He is the King of glory. Selah (Psalms 24:1-10 NKJV)
My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring? O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent. But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel. Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and thou didst deliver them. They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they trusted in thee, and were not confounded. But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people. All they that see me laugh me to scorn: they shoot out the lip, they shake the head, saying, He trusted on the Lord that he would deliver him: let him deliver him, seeing he delighted in him. But thou art he that took me out of the womb: thou didst make me hope when I was upon my mother’s breasts. I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother’s belly. Be not far from me; for trouble is near; for there is none to help. Many bulls have compassed me: strong bulls of Bashan have beset me round. They gaped upon me with their mouths, as a ravening and a roaring lion. I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint: my heart is like wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels. My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and my tongue cleaveth to my jaws; and thou hast brought me into the dust of death. For dogs have compassed me: the assembly of the wicked have inclosed me: they pierced my hands and my feet. I may tell all my bones: they look and stare upon me. They part my garments among them, and cast lots upon my vesture. But be not thou far from me, O Lord : O my strength, haste thee to help me. Deliver my soul from the sword; my darling from the power of the dog. Save me from the lion’s mouth: for thou hast heard me from the horns of the unicorns. I will declare thy name unto my brethren: in the midst of the congregation will I praise thee. Ye that fear the Lord, praise him; all ye the seed of Jacob, glorify him; and fear him, all ye the seed of Israel. For he hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of the afflicted; neither hath he hid his face from him; but when he cried unto him, he heard. My praise shall be of thee in the great congregation: I will pay my vows before them that fear him. The meek shall eat and be satisfied: they shall praise the Lord that seek him: your heart shall live for ever. All the ends of the world shall remember and turn unto the Lord : and all the kindreds of the nations shall worship before thee.
All they that be fat upon earth shall eat and worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow before him: and none can keep alive his own soul. A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to the Lord for a generation. They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he hath done this. (Psalms 22:1-27, 29-31 KJV)
The king shall joy in thy strength, O Lord; and in thy salvation how greatly shall he rejoice! Thou hast given him his heart’s desire, and hast not withholden the request of his lips. Selah.
He asked life of thee, and thou gavest it him, even length of days for ever and ever. His glory is great in thy salvation: honour and majesty hast thou laid upon him. For thou hast made him most blessed for ever: thou hast made him exceeding glad with thy countenance. For the king trusteth in the Lord, and through the mercy of the most High he shall not be moved. Thine hand shall find out all thine enemies: thy right hand shall find out those that hate thee. Thou shalt make them as a fiery oven in the time of thine anger: the Lord shall swallow them up in his wrath, and the fire shall devour them. Their fruit shalt thou destroy from the earth, and their seed from among the children of men. For they intended evil against thee: they imagined a mischievous device, which they are not able to perform. Therefore shalt thou make them turn their back, when thou shalt make ready thine arrows upon thy strings against the face of them. Be thou exalted, Lord, in thine own strength: so will we sing and praise thy power. (Psalms 21:1, 2, 4-13 KJV)
May the LORD answer you in the day of trouble; May the name of the God of Jacob defend you; May He send you help from the sanctuary, And strengthen you out of Zion; May He remember all your offerings, And accept your burnt sacrifice. Selah May He grant you according to your heart’s desire, And fulfill all your purpose. We will rejoice in your salvation, And in the name of our God we will set up our banners! May the LORD fulfill all your petitions. Now I know that the LORD saves His anointed; He will answer him from His holy heaven With the saving strength of His right hand.
Some trust in chariots ,and some in horses ,But we will remember the name of The Lord our God
They have bowed down and fallen; But we have risen and stand upright. Save, LORD! May the King answer us when we call. (Psalms 20:1-6, 8, 9 NKJV)
The person you know as Eli Cruz has been put to rest . I’m new , although i still carry the name , I’ve decided to leave who i was behind. I chose to do that years ago. But that person i was did not want to be left behind and definately did not want to be put to death. Over the years since i made that decision , my old self beat me countless times and ruined me and hurt a person dear to me. No one has ever meant more to me than this person and the monster i was pushed her away. So i killed him. He is dead . I’ve enrolled in seminary school to become a full fledged student and man of God. No more part time man of God it’s all or nothing . No more being a poser. But most of all no more fighting with the wants and desires of my old self because that person is dead and neither myself nor anyone else will resurrect him . So goodbye Eli and don’t come back!
Everybody comes a point in their life when everyhing they’ve known and all that could be depended on has become unknown and the dependable has failed, whether it’s your family or your spouse they will always let you down I’m at a point in my life where I cant afford for anybody to lie and cheat me I will rid myself of you there’s no room for error or people like you in my life. It’s time to put some heads on the chopping block and sever them indefinitely its time to move on with my life no more trying to fit into your mold. I will make my own mold. An authentic mold, a mold that is made in the image of my savior so fakes can’t get in . So I tell you if you’re a phony, or afake , a cheater or a liar stay away from me, i love you and you’re in my prayers i just can’t carry you into where I’m going It was easy to hide behind “Eli cruz” but now that he’s dead there’s nowhere to hide. Remember this what’s done in the dark , is always brought into the light .
I remember it vividly I was 10 years old it was December and Christmas time. I was excited my parents were going shopping so that meant presents. And that’s pretty much all kids think about! It’s Christmas and my parents usually went overboard and bought my brothers and i everything we had asked for throughout the year. This Christmas was a little different. There was a feeling I couldn’t explain ,my parents weren’t really talking to each other a whole lot my father had been disappearing quite a bit. They weren’t fighting and i knew that because the fights were obvious and still plague my memory today. I had witnessed my father abusing my mother. Violence was a norm in my family. I remember the first time i was punched with a closed fist , i was 3 . In the nose , and it boy did it bleed. 3 years old! I remember the feeling of my dad’s knuckles against my face too well. Growing up i fought a lot and anytime I’d get hit it was a trigger to destroy whoever i was fighting. Sorry about that the memory took me off track and brought back some demons i thought were gone. Like i said this year was different this year and I’ll tell you why right now. It was Saturday they had gone shopping the night before and were finishing that afternoon. My uncle had come to stay with us while my parent went shopping and as soon as they left I went straight for their room! “The Closet ” i said to myself that’s where the present are I knew it. They had a big walk in closet So it would be an easy find. Walking in i looked around and didn’t notice any bags or anything covered as if the hide the presents, there was nothing . I was a bit disappointed and stepped back and tripped Over a nike shoebox and hit my head on the metal breaker box. I proceeded to kick the shoebox. I was pissed. The shoebox had flown across closet and when it landed the contents fell out . The contents were things I’d never seen before , and things I wish I’d never seen. Half gallon Ziploc bag full of yellowish rocks and powder. There were vials full of the yellowish powder. And a lot of cash that i counted ,it was $5000 my dad had been selling dope. That’s what was what was wrong between my parents. although my mom didn’t approve of it she couldn’t say or do anything because my dad was a violent man and the money probably kept her quite as well. When my dad was disappearing, and he had been quite often he would come back with gifts for her and toys and things for us. My dad was constantly working and always made really good money .he worked construction so it really wasn’t it noticeable to me my brothers. Looking back on it i did i notice my father not sleeping and I remember his weight-loss which was , to say the least noticeable . But i knew nothing about meths affects on a human body. At the time and for quite a number of years Vista California was known as the methamphetamine capital of the world . it was where it was being
manufactured and there was a lot of it This is all i can write for tonight . It bringing back some memories that aren’t pleasant but I need to get these things out . if you read this fine if not it’s still getting out i can’t keep it Locked in any longer thank you I will resume asap